anticipation has heightened exponentially and is manifesting itself wildly.
I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me
I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
And I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
hmm how would you feel if you find a letter tt goes smtg like this on your desk in the morning:
you have given me the best possible happiness. you have been in every way all that anyone cound be. i don't think two ppeople could have been happier till this terrible disease came. i cant fight it any longer, i know im spoiling your life, that without me you could work. and you will i know. you see i cant even write this properly. i cant read. what i want to say is that i own all the happiness of my life to you. you have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. i want to say that- everybody knows it. if anyone could have saved me it would have been you. everything has gone from me except the certainty of your goodness. i cant go on spoiling your life any longer. i dont think two people could have been happier than we have been.