its been ages since i blogged.
bleagh im sad now..no mood, cuz i watched the rugby finals and AC lost to RJ..
its so sad when u graduate and u see your school losing each time in the nationals and you cant do anything but symphatise with the juniors... they must be feeling like shit now la.. i can only imagine how its like.
on the flipside, the spirit of the rugby finals was there... could feel goosebumps and my skin tingling even as i walked towards the field.gosh sure makes me feel like racing again.
when i can race. when. when will i have the time to train.
you are coming back soon..but the wait is getting intolerable. oh well. c'est la vie
i slept late last night.
i woke up early this morning for some reason and couldnt fall back to sleep.
i want to understand things b4 accepting them. sometimes its hard.
i keep thinkin at the back of my mind. i try to supress those thoughts.
i lost a friend in that manner b4. now we hardly talk.
i wish someone knew whats truly going on in my mind. what i feel.
you should have just said goodnight to the world and sleep peacefully.
you should have closed your eyes and think of happy thoughts.
you should not worry about such matters.
you think too much.
you have a right to worry about this part.
you might have someone out there who knows.
Since this is the last night I keep you home,
Come, I will consecrate you for the journey.
Rather I had you would not go. Nay come,
I will not again reproach you. Lie back
And let me love you a long time ere you go.
For you are sullen-hearted still, and lack
The will to love me. But even so
I will set a seal upon you from my lip,
Will set a guard of honour at each door,
Seal up each channel out of which might slip
Your love for me.
I kiss your mouth. Ah, love,
Could I but seal its ruddy, shining spring
Of passion, parch it up, destroy, remove
Its softly-stirring crimson welling-up
Of kisses! Oh, help me, God! Here at the source
I’d lie for ever drinking and drawing in
Your fountains, as heaven drinks from out their course
The floods.
I close your ears with kisses
And seal your nostrils; and round your neck you'll wear-
Nay, let me work a delicate chain of kisses.
Like beads they go around, and not one misses
To touch its fellow on either side.
And there
Full mid-between the champaign of your breast
I place a great and burning seal of love
Like a dark rose, a mystery of rest
On the slow bubbling of your rhythmic heart.
Nay, I persist, and very faith shall keep
You integral to me. Each door, each mystic port
Of egress from you I will seal and steep
In perfect chrism.
Now it is done. The mort
Will sound in heaven before it is undone.
But let me finish what I have begun
And shirt you now invulnerable in the mail
Of iron kisses, kisses linked like steel.
Put greaves upon your thighs and knees, and frail
Webbing of steel on your feet. So you shall feel
Ensheathed invulnerable with me, with seven
Great seals upon your outgoings, and woven
Chain of my mystic will wrapped perfectly
Upon you, wrapped in indomitable me.