Enlisting today. bye bye slacking and bumming around. bye bye freedom to spend the days as i wish. hello police academy.
Compte les vague: im gonna miss u dearly and cant wait to see u again next, with or without hair. jez know that i love you..also, read psalm 121 again when u are free. and.. REMEMBer to msg me when im in camp ya.. and try ur hardest to see me when im out of camp till the day u fly back.. bonnuit mon cherie, je t'aime. Sentes le soleil.
*suen blogged @ 12:57:00 AM | comment
22.1.04
An almost perfect day. 210103
woke up at 650am, went with dad to send siblings to school..went adam hawker to eat super yummy nasi lemak and teh tarik.. reached raffles town club at about 8- started with a short blast of shower, headed to steam bath for 10 mins..short shower, then to sauna for 15mins.. stretched entire body. Long long shower proceeds.. grooming in front of the mirror 4 quite awhile.
9am, on the first layer im waiting for anne to go out BUT this time i was enjoying myself knowing i will actually see her and RTC is so comfy. Sat on the plush couch, not a care in my mind, time on my side, read the herald tribune, forbes mag, straits times.. watch bush's state union address live and the analysis of it.. went to a higher floor listened to music while daydreaming.. and wat do u noe its 1230. head down to town to wait for anne..171 was full but uncle let me in from the back so didnnt hafta pay.
she was at marine parade so took an hour to come.. i waited at starbucks, enjoying every moment of it. Sitting on the couch the aroma of coffee, sipping on mango frap, eating american cheesecake so slowly, listening to the tunes of buble on my discman, people watching. Was then with her for the longest time in the longest while..enjoyed myself at apple shop d/ling trailers..flipped though photos of travel books at borders..then she had to leave. that was the only bad part the entire day.
went home for reunion dinner. end of day.
*suen blogged @ 11:04:00 AM | comment
20.1.04
im posting this on the lowest point of today..
body aching like hell and tired like nobodies business..uber-lethargic. thats because i just start training seriously again..
feelin like shit because in a week..my freedom is over..and i noe how fast a week can fly esp with CNY up ahead.. then for 2 weeks i cant come out to see my baby.. i come upon the realisation that i have to write down my resolutions and goals for the year soon..real soon.
when i look at my relflection on the mirror.. i ask myself, how much have i changed in a year..have i become a better person..do i look better..what can i do about that reflection.
silly thought: if i can travel faster than the speed of light i can reach my reflection before it reaches the mirror- during that lapse of time i can change something before it reaches the mirror... the faster i travel than the speed of light, the more time i create for myself to do things. i would have successfully broken the barrier of time that governs our lives. cool huh. come to think of it time is pretty much defined by the speed of light.. outside of that we can control time..wow.
*suen blogged @ 1:08:00 PM | comment
3.1.04
guess who?
now this is sexy, girl lying on plush sofa, silky slip. hair bundled up showing perfect face...
i was talkin to one of my guy friends and we came to this theory:
You are a guy; you are having problems that are emotionally bothering you; you are stressed up with studies, exams, whatever; you are thinkin too much about something and can't do anything about it for the moment. Whats the short term anesthetic for you? something that can help you forget and make you feel better all at once?
A hot girl. A friggin hot girl. maybe charlize
im not talkin about sex or anything like that, cuz with someone like that your mind will be taken off anything, im talkin about jez sitting there simply talkin to her and all- probably a hug, nothing sexual. i mean whoa. wouldn't that be nice..
for such non-sexual escapism. i mean, a girlfriend can give you that kinda escapism from reality too but you can't expect her to be on call for such things..cheapens the relationship.
*suen blogged @ 1:46:00 PM | comment
1.1.04
Its a new year, 2004. sad to say it started of not as i would have wanted it.
But i try not to let it bother me.. i have learnt being sentimental and all hinders my life from continuing smoothly..
"ooh u are the 1st person i hugged this year"
"my new year has to start right if not the whole year would be screwy"
" spend the new year with someone you love"
All the crap. Its nice and all to think about but honestly, they should not matter as much as they do..cmon so what if that person is the 1st person i saw or hugged, he might become an enemy. i can screw 364 days up..its a personal choice. I've learn that if u get too attached to something makes life difficult..get comfortable with the room you have, personalise it, so what? if in a year later your mom gives it to your brother.you move house. Train a dog well, become great friends with it..it will probably die before you do. Make friends at school, leave school and drift away..it not possible to have a truckload of good friends, not emotionally possible.
All those letters, cards, little gifts and what not, do take up space. and honestly when im old i don't really think i will go through everyone of them forever. some things you just can live without.spend the new year with someone you love, treasure every moment try to make it special. bullshit. So what if i don't do it, would it make a difference.maybe.not sure.
but i have to admit i have been growing rather attached to someone lately so much so my life is going out of my planning control; getting too close, getting hurt. getting so attached and commited it scares me..cause humans are different from getting attached to things, for humans you require 2 hands to clap, 2 to waltz. but then again.. u can't waltz forever, need to sit down and rest sometimes..give a lil space
conclusion: what's life without all of these.
conclusion2: sum up life in 3 words, said a great man- it goes on.
*suen blogged @ 3:04:00 PM | comment